Severe lithium carbonite overdose with alchohal and without medical attention a year later?

im 15 lithium has destroyed my life i had a gift from god of a brain and lithium single handedly demolished it bit by bit i had As without studying yet i didnt use my brain or i would have never blinked at that pill but story goes drinking with my boyz no beer left looking for more of a buzz so i see this pill bottle and it says intensifys alchohal effects still not being totally dumb i knew it was some kind of antidepresent so i knew there probaly wasnt going to be positive reprecutions regardless but i had no idea the price would be this step but i looked and looked on the internet and there was nothing to be found about mixing this drug with alchohal or really any other precution but like a total imbusil i take the max amount before oding didnt realize that it wasnt just intensifying the alchohal but the lithium as well i remind you i was not on lithium in any way but that night all went well it did intensify the alchohal it took a matter of 2 days before i literatly couldnt function my brain memorys of anything were gone no longer had any attention span couldnt concentrate on nothing period i developed a slurr in speech when previously i could prenunciate fine and speak fluintly it has given me severe anxiety and paranoya constant full blown thirst weight gain no problem solving or reasoning what so ever anymore cant even rationalize being 15 as i am it hurts more everyday to still see them develope and think what was and could have been ive lost all my boys because i know have the mind of a five year old im no lonflger my self and it pushes me closer to suicidal everyday i no longer even have emotions it took me seven months to get the mind span back just to patch words and relearn a vocabulary that is frequently forgot and trace it back to that horrible night ive tried to tell me few closest friends left whats going on in my head and they dont understand neither does family the severity it crippiled my head please some one post something to help a word of ad